so my last post was all sad and blahhh and wahhh :( so i wanted to share what i did to help! lol i worked out for 45 minutes! it helped relieve the anxiety and stress that was overwhelming me and i was able to finally relax! if your mind is going a mile a minute and life is squeezing every last drop of serenity out of you, consider just stopping what you’re doing, and smiling :) even if it’s a fake smile. just smile! it’ll help.
playing miniclip pool on my ipad…checking my phone in vain for texts that will never come. there’s no one i want to talk to right now. and it gets me thinking of people i used to talk to…forcing me to remind myself why it is that i stopped talking to said people…ya know? it’s like i find myself almost running to these people but i know that they hurt me, and that they’d do it again. and then there are those whom i want to speak with but its obvious that they dont want to speak with me…this isnt even one of those times where i’m like wahhhh >_< whyyy don’t i have a bf?!?!?! nah. it’s not that. all i want. the only thing i motherfuckin want right now, is someone to talk to. someone who cares enough to hit me up and ask me to chill. i feel like i am always the one to hit everyone else up…like i have to always coordinate the plans…or something…idk…i just feel alone….and i hate it…
So I have been SLACKING on writing for my blog! Life is hectic but awesome right now, details to come!
Emotional outbursts with my mom before 10 am? Complete with crying my eyes out on a public train? Yes. Just what I wanted today. Good morning everyone.